In my head I can hear the person next to me say: “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to punch your wall, it just slipped out.” This is the one thing I find most difficult to deal with when I am angry and it is one of the things we try to avoid by getting counseling.
People often say things like, “I wasn’t trying to hit you,” and then when they realize you were trying to hit them, they actually punch you. It’s a lot like getting punched in the face. It’s also a lot like being punched in the face when you’re angry. If you punch someone in the face you are doing a lot more than just punching them. You are also doing a lot more than just hitting them.
To be honest, I did not realize the extent to which I was punching people because I had been given this information from a counselor. I knew that punching someone in the face was a crime. And I had been given the information that punching someone in the face was a crime. And so I didnt know of a lot of these other things we do.
A lot of our behaviors aren’t just “harder” or “worse,” but they’re also just completely different. Sometimes, we just hit people in the wrong place, or not in the right way, or not in the right time. That’s all it is.
Well, I don’t know about you, but I have a hard time believing that punching a wall when you’re angry has the same effect on the person you punch that I would have on him. The thought of punching someone in the face while being angry seems to do a much more serious damage on them.
Some people have been known to hit the wall when they’re angry. I know I have. But I’ve never hit a wall in anger before or have the same result as the person I hit. I think it comes from the fact that punching someone in the face in anger is pretty scary.
You do what you have to do. It is what you have to do for yourself. It is how you feel that makes the difference. I have no idea why people feel the way they feel about me.
Not that I know why. But I do know that the people I know don’t use them that way. And I am very sad that they are the ones who do.
I am sad that I do not know why I feel like I do. And I am sad that I am not the person I thought I am. But that is okay. I guess it just comes down to a lack of self-awareness. Either way, I do not want to be that person anymore.
I do not believe we can be in a constant state of self-awareness. We are more likely to be angry, sad, or bitter than we are to feel self-aware. And we are more likely to feel the need to be the person we think we are, the person we think we want to be.
